new way of doing things
I’ve been thinking about why it’s been so hard to stay consistent with blogging, and I realize that a big part of what holds me back is anxiety. The thought of putting up something public that will be read and possibly scrutinized causes me a great deal of anxiety. The truth is that not a lot of people will read this, and fewer will really scrutinize or criticize any of it. But the anxiety remains, and the result is a untouched blog and many, many thoughts and ideas that go unwritten. This is not good.
So I’m looking for a new way of doing things. A way that will bring much more life and joy, and hopefully lessen the anxiety to a manageable level. It may seem strange, but I have a hard time figuring out what it is that really brings me joy and gives me life. I know what’s good and what’s necessary and what’s needed, but I don’t always know what I enjoy and love and find peace in. I know I enjoy writing and thinking, and I hope that I’ll get to do more of both. So here’s to yet another new beginning.
reading your two recent posts, i can’t help but think that what holds you from blogging freely is perhaps because you are waiting for the next big “post” idea. i hope you can be free of the anxieties you’ve mentioned and let God do the next best thing through your desire to write your thots. i know i enjoy reading them. and the good thing about God is that his current (or last) best thing is usually his next best thing. he gave us everything we need in Jesus but also knows that we need to experience him in a new way daily. isn’t it a mystery that God is “everlasting” and “unchanging” yet he does surprise us?
October 6, 2010 at 10:34 am
bro, thanks for always being there for me…even if it is to read my random thoughts, haha.
October 12, 2010 at 11:23 am